He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken. Psalm 62:2
Do you feel me?
The last few weeks have been a tad crazy. We have been preparing to get our house on the market. Everything except this stopped. I was unable to write or blog. I didn’t go to the gym. My most productive prayer time was when I was painting my bathroom. Seriously, do you feel me? LIve can get crazy busy.
Well, thankfully, we survived and the house is officially on the market, and under contract. Now it’s time to get back to all things neglected. The gym, (check), bible study/prayer time, (check), writing, Ummm, ok, truthfully, I’m struggling a little. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, oh, I have tons, my friends! I think I have too much! Is that even possible? Now that I am not consumed with prepping the house I think back over the last month.
I sat and pondered what to write and found myself sitting at my desk going through old and new photos. Have you seen the picture I have used above? I first saw it on social media for National Daughters Day last year and I loved it. I saved it and look at it often. When I see it I smile as it describes my feelings perfectly about my daughter.
And I looked, and rose up, and said unto the nobles, and to the rulers, and to the rest of the people, Be not ye afraid of them: remember the Lord, which is great and terrible, and fight for your brethren, your sons, and your daughters, your wives, and your houses. Nehemiah 4:14
You can’t make time stand still
This year was a big one for me personally as it is the year my daughter went to college. I wondered over and over who would be there to protect her. I agonized over knowing if she was ready. I agonized over knowing if I was ready!
It seems that somewhere in their senior year our kids believe they are ready to be on their own. Parents get frustrated/downright scared because they want their kids to make choices that will protect them from the pain of failure. Teenagers are eager to fly the nest, where at the same time, parents are desperate to hold them back.
Unfortunately, there is no stopping the ticking of the clock. For better or for worse, children are meant to fly the coop. Because of that, as responsible parents, it is our job to let them go. We have to rely on all that we have taught them as they were under our tutelage.
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6
Building relationships that matter
Relationships are like any other living thing, if you feed them, they will grow. I realize as I look back over the last year I could see the woman my daughter was growing into. She is sweet to the core, funny as all get out, and passionately loyal to those she loves. She thinks she is awkward, that she is shy but there is a light in her that shines and attracts all that cross her path. I am so proud to call her daughter. I love calling her friend.
As I said, this year was monumental in more than one way. There are days I still wonder why she had to grow up, (any mom out there know what I mean?), days I wish I still had her depending on me for whatever she needs. I know that is not fair to her, her wings have spread, she is so ready to fly. Tears burn my eyes as I write. Not out of sadness, though there is a little, I will not lie. Tears burn with the amount of joy, love, and friendship I feel rising in my heart, it is almost overwhelming.
As much as I know I will always have my daughters back, (and honestly, I feel the same for my boys, but today is all about us girls) I KNOW God has a path that he created solely for her. It is now her time to grow and discover all she is meant to be in this world. I will NEVER forget the day, she turned to me sweetly and said, “Mom, I’ve got this”. Because of that and the relationship that has been growing between us, I will let her go, I will not hold her back, I will cheer her on as she soars.
Soar High Sweet Girl
There comes a time where you have to trust what you lean on. For me, that is my faith in Jesus and how he is there to lead, guide, and protect. I know he will guide my daughter in making her own choices. He will certainly protect and shield her when mistakes are made. He will soothe and heal through hurts and disappointments. That is the blessing of having a relationship with our Lord. He knows us, He protects us and He will ALWAYS be there for us.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you. Psalm 32:8
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalms 147:3
So, I’ll wipe the tears away, tell her “baby, you got this, but mama will always have your back.” I will fall back on my relationship with Jesus, knowing I raised her as I was led to through him. Knowing that if there is anyone that loves her more than I, It is Him, and there is no one better to have at your back.
Heavenly Father, I ask for divine protection on my daughter as you shelter her from anything that would hurt her. I ask you to watch over her, steer her down the road you plowed solely for her to walk. Talk to her when she feels down, celebrate with her as she grows. Keep her tight in your arms as the world embraces her. I know she is in your hands and I believe, in Your name, she is cherished, she is protected, and she is YOURS. In Jesus’s name. -Mom