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Being Weak for the Power of God’s Glory.

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God’s Glorious Word

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:8-9

It was late, and well past bedtime, I was sitting in my car in the parking lot of BJ’s. I was alone, frozen in shock as my world was crashing down around me.

Learning of lies and betrayal had tears falling as the shock slowly began to thaw. My marriage was over. I remember the despair and fear I felt as I thought of the future. What was I going to do? I will admit that I cried long and hard but eventually found myself leaning on the only thing I knew would keep me strong.

My relationship with Jesus.

His love held me tight as my marriage died. His presence filled me as I looked to Him for how to walk through this new normal I found myself in; his grace enabled me to walk the path He wanted me to walk.

When I think of the grace Jesus showed the world before his death, I am simply in awe. To think of how he was beaten and mocked but still prayed God would forgive them is an example of the grace I wanted to share. I see God’s Grace as His Spirit working in me and guiding me to act and treat others in a manner pleasing to Him.

There was no way I could do this alone; I needed his divine influence to guide me.

Everyone goes through hardships that mock our past, stills our present, and taints our future….if we let it.

As I look at verse 9 of 2 Corinthians 12, my eyes zero in on the words grace, sufficient, and weakness. I desperately wanted to have God’s grace, to react as He would have reacted to wrongs done to him. This verse gave me hope and courage to be obedient, knowing that He would show me the way when I was at my weakest. The Lord would use it to show His glory.

 It’s a beautiful thing to know that while we may feel broken inside, we can trust the Lord to give us His strength. When we open our heart and soul to him, the majesty of who he is will reveal the miracle that He is.

Even more, as I healed, people saw a transformation, a strength I didn’t have before. That strength was God’s grace and his grace alone. It’s a gift He extends to us all. We just need to open our hearts to Him and accept it.

You may be in the middle of a situation that has you wondering how to move forward. You may feel scared and alone but know you are not. Our Savior is big enough to handle any hurt or injustice done. Not only does God say he will never leave us nor forsake us, but his grace will set you free. Free in the sense that you can lean on him in your most dire times, knowing his grace will sustain and strengthen you.

Heavenly Father, I thank you for the grace you so willingly give to me. I ask that you pour out your grace and fill me with your strength in my moments of weakness. I pray your glory and grace shine through me for the world to see the power of your grace. Amen.

Remember the True Meaning of CHRISTmas.

12 Bible Verses to Immerse Yourself In.

Finding the Joy of CHRIST in Remembering His Words.

When you think of Christmas, what do you think of? Is it the tree and the dreaded lights that need to be untangled and wrapped around it? Is it the list of wants that has you running around from store to store trying to find the perfect ‘gift’? What is the ‘perfect’ gift? Ask a 5-year-old and it may be a Barbi doll, and that’s fair. Hopefully, you will also get some deeper thoughts on gifts. Let’s go to the Word to find verses that will help us remember.

The Peace of Remembering.

If you are anything like me, this is a crazy busy time of year. It’s easy to rush around trying to get things that we think are so important done, it can be easy to lose focus on the true meaning of CHRISTmas. I need time in my bible to settle my soul and pray you find that peace as well.

I want to share some of my favorite verses that help me not focus just on gifts bought and received. I pray this gives you peace and comfort as they do me.

Acts 20:35
In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.' " 
Matthews 2:11 
On coming to the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh.

I invite you to read Matthew more on the birth of Jesus in Matthews 2:1-24

Luke 1: 46-48
And Mary said: "My soul glorifies the Lord and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. From now on all generations will call me blessed,
Romans 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
James 1:17
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Luke 2:8-9
And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified.
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11 is one of my personal favorite verses. Anytime I wonder about the course I am on it brings me back to WHO made that path and the importance of staying the course.

Galatians 4:4-5
But when the set time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those under the law, that we might receive adoption to sonship.
Isaiah 7:14
Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.
Philippians 4:4
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!
Luke 6:38
 Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
Isaiah 9:6
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Father, I pray for the person reading these verses. I pray your Holy Spirit resides in them and guides them to walk the path you made just for them (read Path made for one). I ask you to quiet the noise that can so easily eclipse the most important time of year. I pray they find peace in your word and peace in you. Amen

Christine's Corner

The Beautiful Blessings of Prayer.

“The Lord bless you and keep you, the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you, the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.” Numbers 6:24-26

Father God

There are so many moments in the day where we feel alone, insecure, hurt, and afraid. For many of us, we walk in circles trying to take care of problems that only You can resolve. Lord, I humbly ask that you rain your mercy down on the person reading this. I pray you lay your mighty hand on them, bestowing your peace.


Father, I ask that you heal the heartbreak that holds someone’s heart for ransom. Regardless of how the heartbreak happened, Father, I know you can rebuild this heart that has been broken, you are the only one that knows what this person needs. My words are not needed as you see into every heart, you alone know what this heart craves. I pray you deliver this person from their pain and make them whole in Your name, showing the world Your glory.

Broken Trust

Lord, I pray for the person who has had the trust they gave to another broken. There are so many aftershocks when trust is broken, I pray you give guidance to the person that needs it. People say, time heals all wounds but I know You heal wounds with your constant love and support. I pray, Father God, you will show this person how to rebuild trust through you and your magistery.


Lord, one thing I know for certain, is that grief comes in many forms. From the loss of a loved one to the loss of something you held dear, such as a friendship you valued, a marriage, the loss of innocence. There are many things that cause the heart to grieve, I ask you, Father, hold this person in your grasp as they mourn what they lost. Infuse them with your presence, letting them feel you as you hold them up. I ask they turn to you in their grief, seeking your wonderful counsel and allowing you to bless them through your healing.


Almighty Father, we live in a world where insecurities abound. It plagues everyone, sparing no one. From feelings of worthlessness, not being accepted for who you are, to not feeling like you are good enough. Father, I pray for all the people that walk through their day hiding the fears that live in their minds. I pray you reach out to them and take those fears and turn them into blessings, all in your name, to show your glory. I pray you give confidence, happiness, and the peace of knowing you will fill the holes where insecurities lie.

Blessings from Prayer

Heavenly Father, I thank you that you are the one True God, the God we can come to, talk to, pray to. I thank you for your sacrifice on the cross, I can not imagine my life or this world without you. You have blessed me with confidence, peace, and joy because of our relationship. I pray others will turn to you, seek you and accept the relationship you offer.

I am blessed to call you Father and blessed to be called daughter.


3 Reasons on How Forgiveness Leads to Spiritual Freedom

Forgiveness is a huge part of being an obediant servant to our Lord.

So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don’t get tied up again in slavery to the law. Galatians 5:1

I had known for some time that things were not right in my marriage. I was, from what other people said, the perfect wife. I stayed home and took care of our kids. I did everything I could do around the house so that when my husband came home from work he didn’t have to do a thing but spend time with me and our kids. That is what I wanted to accomplish, unfortunately, I did not get the results I wanted.

As I said, friends looking from the outside in thought our marriage was perfect. Remembering that time I recall how much of a failure I felt I was. I knew things were far from perfect. I felt like a fraud living in a marriage that was little more than a casual relationship.

Obeying God-Forgiving Others

When a marriage ends it’s not just the union between two people that ends. It’s the end of an era. The end of an idea. The end of a dream. It’s the end of ever being able to trust with your whole heart.

We know Jesus tells us to forgive, just as He forgave our sins by taking them to the cross. Forgiving gives us the freedom to move forward in His love. You know biblically God wants you to forgive that person so you can move forward, turn the other cheek, as scripture says. But when your heart is bleeding, when it’s shattered by pain caused by a loved one, you find yourself wondering how to do that.

How do you forgive betrayal? The type of forgiveness that is God-given when you feel so broken inside? The only forgiveness that will truly set you free.

Praying to Forgive

Today I want to talk about a time in my life when the one person I trusted destroyed that gift of trust I gave with a willing heart. When you are in a relationship and an event unfolds and shatters a belief you have had in place all your life. Feeling broken and betrayed, you wonder how you will recover.

I am not talking about saying the words and hoping they stick. I am talking about the kind of forgiveness that you give even when you don’t want to. Even when you don’t think you have it in you. You want freedom from that pain the betrayal caused but truthfully, sometimes it feels easier to hold onto the anger and hurt than to let go of it and forgive.

You have to look at your heart, put it into prayer to help align your thoughts with Jesus’s. I had such anger and hurt, I was so disillusioned by the one man I thought I could trust. How do you bundle that up and throw it away and just say I forgive you, AND mean it? How do you put the action behind the words? I so wanted to do as Jesus said, “forgive others as I have forgiven you” but struggled for years with how to do that.

Praying to Obey

I was the one that was determined to forgive because I knew it was a command I needed to follow. One day I would pray and give all my anger and hurt to Jesus and ask that He take it from me. Deliver me from the feelings that kept me locked in a box that had no key.

For years I would think I had forgiven the act and moved forward, to only have an interaction that would dredge up all the old feelings from the past. Once again I would be swamped with anger that wanted to choke me. I would walk in the darkness of depression as I wondered what was so wrong with me. What did I do to cause this?

I would agonize all over again on how to truly forgive and be able to move forward. Many times I found myself praying to God for the discipline to obey a command I desperately wanted to follow. As I studied and prayed over time, I realized for me, there are 3 reasons I must forgive.

It is a Command
For if you forgive others for their transgressions, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions. Matthew 6:14-15

I am also a firm believer that forgiving shows how we are being obedient to our Lord. We know being obedient will bring us a fulfillment in Jesus that will ease our soul.

Jesus Forgave Us

How many times have you asked Jesus to forgive a sin you have committed? For myself, I can’t fathom how high that number would be. How can we expect our perfect God to forgive us if we can not do what he asks of us? Forgive others as we have been forgiven.

And forgive us our debts, as we have also forgiven our debtors. Matthew 6:12
Unforgiveness Keeps Us locked in the Prison of our Past

If we hold onto the anger and hurt others have caused, we will be stuck in a prison, unable to move into the role God has set aside just for us. Holding onto the ugliness of sin holds us back from receiving the blessings that the Lord wants to give us.

My pastor once said if our hands are holding onto the pain of sin, refusing to let it go, our hands will not be open to receive the blessings he wants to shower down on us. I also think that if we hold on to the anger and pain, we will forever be looking at the past. My friends, I pray now that your eyes have turned from the past, that you are now seeking out the future you are meant to have in Jesus’s company.

It took me years before I realized I could let go of what had been done. Years of praying, years of running the same cycle in my head. Let it go, pull it back, ask God to help me forgive, forgive, pull it back and start all over again. Yes, that was me, for so long, I am kinda embarrassed about it.

My Road to Freedom

That being said, I know you are wondering what I did do to break the chains of holding onto something God had already forgiven. There is no mystery around it, all I did was grab on to Jesus and didn’t let go. There were times I felt I was on my way, that I had put that sin in my past. There were days I pulled it right out again and relived all the pain and hurt as if it were new.

The one thing that was constant for me was my desire to let it go. I honestly did not want to hang on to the feelings that I had failed, that I had been let down and hurt. Any time the feelings of grief overwhelmed me I would ask Jesus to take them from me. To show me how to blindly forgive. Forgive, so that I would never take it back again. It’s not something I could do on my own.

I stayed in bible studies, (Jesus would always bring someone in my life to guide me on the next step of my journey), learning to live in the promise that He was faithful and would never leave me. I relied on that knowledge for as long as it took me to not just believe it but to live it.

Freedom in Forgiveness

My friends, to forgive is never easy as it means we have been hurt, most likely by someone we care about. I can not speak for everyone but I know more than anything I want to live in accord with Jesus. Anything that may keep me separated from him is something I do not want in my life. That being said, my guide to forgiving went right back to scripture, breathing it in, living it every day.

One thing I know for certain, if you seek out Jesus, He will reveal himself to you. He will guide you out of your darkness, sometimes holding your hand, other times carrying you through the pain. Trust in Him, when He died on that cross, our sin died with Him. It is no more! That is the Spiritual Freedom he has given us.

Heavenly Father, I pray for who is reading this. If they are struggling to let go of pain caused by sin, I ask you to guide them through the maze of pain, shattered trust and show them your path for them. I pray they feel your divine presence in their life as they seek you out, show them how to forgive, is to live in YOUR freedom. In Jesus’s name, I pray. Amen

God’s Designed Path-Stepping into the Role of a Lifetime.

The way my Christian walk has gone over the years, I am blessed to look back and see growth! Real spiritual growth. I like to joke that my spiritual growth is like an onion……you know, layers! I grew up in a home where we went to church every week. We were baptized and completed our first communion and confirmation. I truly believed in God and that Jesus died on the cross. I didn’t think too much about God or how he played any role in my life.

I was around the tender age of 22 when God ( Oh yes, looking back, I can see God blatantly moving people in and out of my life) moved my supervisor into the role of evangelist. That’s right; she went from telling me what tables to clean to sharing Jesus. I can still see us sitting there talking and praying for my salvation in my mind’s eye.

Despite having Jesus in my heart, I didn’t really have him in my life. I didn’t know the bible, and I didn’t understand what a beautiful relationship was waiting for me to dive into. As a result, I basically went on living my life as nothing had changed.

I can’t help but look back at that time with sadness for time lost with Jesus. At the same time, I am extremely grateful for his persistent pursuit of me.

Jesus was just beginning with me.

Thankfully, Jesus had plans and never lost track of me. Life moved on; the next time I gave any thought, real, meaningful thought to Jesus, many things had changed. I had finished school, gotten married, and moved halfway across the country. My husband got a great job he was excited about, and we met new people that we quickly became best friends with. (Looking back, I can see this is the time that my life started to change.)

Remember, I had been saved years ago but had not spent any time developing my relationship with Jesus. I didn’t even know I was supposed to do that. As we got settled in our new home, I spent a lot of time (I’ll call them Doug and Susie) with Susie while the guys were at work. She was very eager to share with me her beliefs and asked me outright if I was saved? You don’t want to miss this part, the long-ago moment of me accepting Jesus as my savior came rushing to my memory. I looked at her and could say I was, and truthfully, I was saved, but I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus.

The decision to change.

As I watched Doug and Susie in their relationship with Jesus and each other, I knew that I wanted what they had. I am not saying their relationship was perfect, for we all know that does not exist. That being said, I was encouraged to seek more of a relationship with Jesus and wanted my husband to want the same. You must be wondering, where did my husband fall in with this change of heart of mine?

You see, I started to think differently. I started to care about things that never hit my radar before. For example, I wanted to start attending church, but not the church I (or my husband) grew up in. No, I wanted to change to a more Bible-based, Jesus teaching church. I can almost hear you thinking, how did that go over with the husband? Like a freight train hitting the town in the dead of night, not very welcome.

For the next few years, all I did was learn from my friends and attend their church, if I was able. Because I could not convince my husband to start going regularly, I would make excuses as often as possible to get us there. Sometimes it worked. Many times it did not. I still don’t know why I did not insist we go or go myself. I laugh now; I was an in-the-closet Christian. Unfortunately, it was not from the world but my husband. So, what’s a girl to do, you ask? I continued praying like never before. That was the first step I took in getting to know Jesus.

Stepping full stride into my faith

Fast forward with me a few years. Our friends, Doug and Susie, had taken a new job and moved to North Carolina. It was not too long after that Doug approached my husband regarding a similar opportunity. It did not take much for us to decide it would be a great career move, so he took it. With much excitement, we sold our house and moved to North Carolina as well.

Life was great. We built a beautiful new home and met our new neighbors. Now, this is important; meeting our new neighbors was 100% God moving in my life. I had continued praying and growing in Jesus as much as I could without having a home church. Our relationship with Doug and Susie started to drift, but not for any particular reason I could see. Now I do know why. God was preparing me for the next step in my journey.

Let me introduce to you two of the most influential people in my walk with Christ, Joe and Mary (at least, that’s what we will call them:)). They were our neighbors to our new home and we instantly connected with them. They also belonged to a church they were very involved with and invited us to attend. I absolutely fell in love with it. The atmosphere was exactly what I was looking for. We worshiped with amazing music and teachings that came right from the bible.

Changes that bring blessings

As things do, time brought about some changes, mostly pregnancy. When I became pregnant, I honestly thought I would return to work; as a matter of fact, we planned on it. Then our son was born. I think you will agree with me when I say everything changed when we held him. You guessed it, we changed our mind, and in the blink of an eye, I became a stay-at-home mom. Best life ever!

It was also when God ramped up His pursuit of me. I was able to attend bible studies during the day at Joe and Mary’s church. It was here that my desire to learn more blossomed. I went from one study to the next, not caring who or what it was on. I wanted to learn it all. Let’s say I was a little greedy with my time with Jesus.

As I grew in my relationship with Jesus, my transformation exploded. Don’t ever doubt as your love for Christ grows that you will stay the same. It is simply impossible. My entire world changed. I became diligent in teaching my son about God, determined he would have what I didn’t have growing up. My heart wanted a relationship with my husband I did not have, and I prayed for the Lord to ‘change’ him.

There was nothing I said or prayed that would soften his heart. There was no way he would humble himself to God, ask for the forgiveness of his sin, and put Jesus first. He was tight with control and needed to have it. I continued to pray earnestly as well as diving deeper into the Word.

When blessings are mixed with incredible loss

We were thrilled to find we were pregnant again. I was convinced I wanted all boys about God (totally knowing what was best for me) to bless us with our daughter. For me, life was at its fullest, unfortunately, not so much for my husband. I didn’t know what was wrong, but I certainly knew there was a problem. It was strictly by chance I discovered he was having an affair. Actually, let me be honest, I didn’t discover it; I was the last to know and had to be told by someone I barely knew, my own husband. That was truly the worst day of my life, but at the same time, it made such sense.

I felt so broken, empty, and at a loss of what to do. Thankfully, I wasn’t alone. I had Jesus. I know that may sound like a cliche, but it is as true as the sky is blue. I became laser-focused on putting the needs of my children first. They would never see an ugly argument, never hear us scream terrible things at each other. I was determined to spare them as much pain as possible and needed the love and guidance that only Jesus could give.

Over those years, it was Jesus who used the bible studies to surround me with some of the fiercest prayer warriors I know. I know my strength came from God and those amazing friends holding me up. Don’t get me wrong, I was lost for a time, but God never left my side.

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you;he will never let the righteous be shaken.Psalm 55:22
Blessings ALWAYS multiply

Slowly as God put my ‘new normal’ back together, he continued to work in me and around me. Finally, I was able to come out of hiding, no more in the closet Christian. Can I hear an Amen?! I cleaved to him in some of the most painful moments of my life, trusting in all that I had learned of him. That I could depend on him, rely on his promises, and faithfully step into this new life.

"God is indeed my salvation; I will trust and won't be afraid." Isaiah 12:2

As time passed, I knew there were a few things I would never go back to. The most important was knowing the grace of God changed me, and I wanted the world to see it. I wanted a husband that showered me with love, but most of all, I wanted a husband that loved Jesus too! My faith was going to be what people saw in me as soon as we met. At least, that is my working goal. To always have a love of Jesus shine through me so others can see Him and all His glory.

I have continued to grow in my faith and am ecstatic to share my life is at its fullest. The Lord has blessed me in marriage with a wonderful man that, along with all our children (yes, he also has 2, ) were baptized at our church. The day is engrained in my head as another blessing passed on by our loving Father.

Follow the path

I am following a dream of writing for Jesus with my blog, trusting He will take it where He wants it. I don’t know his plan for it, or me, really. I do know; I plan on being obedient to his will for my life. Looking back over the years, I can see so many other instances where God was clearly stepping up on my behalf. It is my turn to step up and follow the path I know was created by God’s hand, strictly for me.

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How to find Encouragement from the Spirit Astounding Power

Strengthening the Spirit in You!

John 14

Putting time into developing your relationship with the Holy Spirit will bless you every day. He is the might comforter that goes every place with you. As you know, if you read my blog, Who is the Holy Spirit-How to Empower His Astounding Glory? You know the awesome power that lives in you.

Every day can be a test on us—a test of patience, happiness, thankfulness, and, more importantly, our Christ-like walk. God says to love each other as he loved us. This world we live in is riddled with hate, anger, dishonesty, and many other things that can lead us astray from how we honor God.

As it says in Ephesians 6:10-23, we must put on the full armor of God (I can’t wait to share my ‘Armor of God Blog with you later this fall) so we can stand firm in His convictions. We must stay upbeat and focused on our Lord. The best way for me to do that is to go back to scripture. Below are some of the verses I studied while writing my blog.

I pray you will experience wisdom, strength, and comfort from them.

"But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you." John 14:26
"Do you not believe that I am in the Fatehr, and the Father is in Me?  The words that I say to you I do notspeak on My own initiative, but the Father abiding in Me does His works. Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father is in Me; otherwise believe because of the works themselves.'John 14:10-11
"I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever; that is the Spirit of Truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it does not see Him or know Him, but you know Him becauuse He abides with you and will be in you." John 14:16-17
"Nevertheless, I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage that I go away, for if I do not go away, the helper will not come to you. But if I go, I will send him to you."  John 16:7
Now there are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit. And there are diversities of ministrations, and the same Lord. And there are diversities of workings, but the same God, who worketh all things in all. But to each one is given the manifestation of the Spirit to profit withal. For to one is given through the Spirit the word of wisdom; and to another the word of knowledge, according to the same Spirit: to another faith, in the same Spirit; and to another gifts of healings, in the one Spirit; and to another workings of miracles; and to another prophecy; and to another discernings of spirits: to another divers kinds of tongues; and to another the interpretation of tongues: 
but all these worketh the one and the same Spirit, dividing to each one severally even as he will.  

1 Corintians 12:4-11
Until now you have not asked [the Father] for anything in My name; but now ask and keep on asking and you will receive, so that your joy may be full and complete. John 16:24
And whatever you ask for in prayer, believing, you will receive.” Matthew 21:22
“Ask and keep on asking and it will be given to you; seek and keep on seeking and you will find; knock and keep on knocking and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7

my unusual walk in obedience to God's word

My Unusual Walk in Obedience to God’s Word

Obedience is defined as the willingness to comply with orders or requests; being submissive to another’s will. On the other hand, biblical Obedience (obedience to God) means to hear, trust, submit and surrender to God and his Word.

I have been involved with bible studies for the last 20 plus years, trying to learn God’s Word and know Jesus. It has only been in the last 4 years (or so) that I started to feel a tug in my heart each time we studied obedience or I read about it in scripture. Obedience to God is now my top priority, but it can be a struggle for many people, myself included. I wanted to share a little about my walk to being obedient. I pray you will find some words of comfort and maybe a little guidance on how you too can be obedient to the Lord.

He replied, “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it – Luke 11:28 NIV

Notice how long I had been studying the Word, growing in my faith, developing a loving, committed relationship with Jesus before He started knocking on my hearts’ door about obedience. That’s correct; I feel God waited until we had the relationship we needed before asking me (well, he wasn’t really asking;)) to obey. He knew if our relationship weren’t in the right place, obedience wouldn’t work. When you consider that obedience is to hear, trust, submit and surrender to God and his Word, one must have the right relationship with Him. 

Love the Lord our God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength – Mark 12:30 NIV

Obedience is hard! Think about the last time you wanted to lose a few pounds, but you really wanted a piece of cake. If your mind and heart are not in the right place, that diet will not last long. The concept for obedience to God is the same, you have to be committed to him, you have to really want that strong of a relationship with him, or obedience can be as allusive as those last few pounds. 

I know for me, if he would have come knocking before I was completely committed to him, it would have been easier to hedge around or ignore the calling. Over the years, as I have studied the Word and my walk with Christ has become a calling, I have just fallen more in love with Him and all that he has blessed me with and all He has walked me through. 

Even though it has become my heart’s desire to be obedient to Him and his calling for me, there are still days I stumble and doubt. The fear of believing in me is so second nature that I find myself inventing ways to get myself out of what I know God patiently waits for me to step into. 

To busy to walk in obedience

Show of hands (figuratively speaking) who is busy? I am 99.9% sure there was not one person who didn’t say, ME! Have you noticed how busy we can get when something needs to be done, but we are just unsure if we want to do it? 

You have a feeling- a thought maybe- that keeps coming to mind, ideas popping in your head, entire conversations you have with yourself (in the privacy of your head, of course)! You know God is trying to tell you the next step of your journey is ready for you, or maybe a completely new journey…and what do we do? We get busy.

Suddenly many jobs need to get done first, like cleaning the house, taking on a new project at work, or my personal favorite, a new committee at my kid’s school. I find it humorous that we think we can out busy God, I mean, really?! Like showing him we have so much on our plate we can’t possibly take on what he wants us to do too, maybe at a later time, just not right now, is that okay with you God? I have to laugh because I so did that! Well, let me share what happened; God laughed too, right in my face! 

Busy does not scare God; he just took some of my busy away and kept nudging me about being obedient to Him. You see when God is in your life, and his eye is on you, there is no avoiding it, no putting it off, and certainly no getting out of it. Trying to avoid God and His calling for you can become like a game you can play, but it’s a game that has no end. 

Our doubt feeds our fear

“Hi Jesus, it’s me, Christine; I really want to thank you for all that you have blessed me with. I know this path I walk on was designed just for me by you…and it’s great! I love where I’m at; everything is good. I was thinking, you know, about this calling…that I may need to study some more, pray more for discernment, make sure I know what I am doing before I do anything new. I want to make sure it’s what you want me to do, and I want to be obedient, but are you sure it’s the right time?”

Wow, that’s a conversation I have had with myself about a hundred times. I can tell you, my friend, it’s not God’s message I needed clarity on; no, He has always known what he was doing. It was me, letting my doubt of myself turn into fear of doing something I have never done. That next step where I felt God was taking me, where I desperately wanted to go but still dragged my feet, doubting I could fulfill my calling. 

What I can share for certain, my friend, if you have a special desire in your heart, you think it may be your calling; and if you have prayed on it, wondered about it, and prayed some more, chances are God put that desire on your heart. Believe me, if it is not what he wants you to be doing, He will close that door. Then bring you right back to where he wants you to be. Just trust in Him and take it to him in prayer. You do not have to worry about doubting yourself if you trust in Jesus.  

Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God; and whatever we ask, we receive from him because we keep his commandments and do what pleases him.—1 John 3:21-22 ESV

I am not a big believer in things just popping into my head (unless it’s what to make for dinner). I am a firm believer in the Holy Spirit of God giving me that desire. We have a choice to make; we can believe God is who He says he is, (Jeremiah 10:12– He hath made the earth by his power, he hath established the world by his wisdom, and hath stretched out the heavens by his discretion.) or we can fall into the trap of our mind and let doubt pull us away from Gods next blessing.  

The Cost of Disobedience

Some people may want you to believe that there are no real consequences if you are not obedient, but they are wrong. The bible clearly says your obedience affects those around you. 

For as by the one man’s disobedience, the many were made sinners, so by the one man’s obedience, the many will be made righteous.— Romans 5:19 ESV

Do you think you can do your own thing and have no influence on your family, your peers, even people you don’t know very well? If you profess to be a Christian, people will expect you to act a certain way, whether they are believers or not. But what people think really does not matter, nor should we fall into letting it matter. 

It all goes back to the relationship you have with God. The closer you get to him through his Word,  the desire to be more like him in every way will lay heavy on your heart. Your obedience to God will shine through you like the sun breaking through the clouds on a rainy day. You will be an example of how to walk in obedience because the love you have for Christ will transform you. You will want to be like Him, you will want your walk to be like his walk, and you will want to portray him to the world through the way you live. And you will be blessed by God. 

The Blessings of Obedience

When some people think about God blessing us, they may think more monetarily that they will be blessed with a great job, a big bonus, a large home, or another tangible way. To me, blessings from my Father are much more from the heart. 

I am blessed with his love, with his presence in my life; he is my own personal guide through this world we live in. I feel his peace in my heart and his joy in my soul. He is my daily compass, my constant companion that will talk with me anywhere I go. Of course, we can’t forget about the blessings of our family, our friends, our health, the jobs we have. All of the wonderful things He gives us because he loves us and wants to bless us. 

 If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations on earth.  All these blessings will come on you and accompany you if you obey the Lord your God:  You will be blessed in the city and blessed in the country.  The fruit of your womb will be blessed, and the crops of your land and the young of your livestock-the calves of your herds and the lambs of your flocks.  Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed.- Deuteronomy 28:1-5 NIV

And God can bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.- 2 Corinthians 9:8 NIV

It’s easy to be disobedient if your walk with Christ is not strong. If you’re struggling with obedience to God, I highly recommend you look at your relationship with Jesus. Can it be strengthened? Can you spend more time in the Word to draw closer to Him? If you are having a difficult time, turn to him, pray to him about your struggle, He will hear you and guide you closer to him. The closer you walk with Jesus, the more you want to be like him. The closer you are with him, the easier it is to be obedient because it becomes your heart’s desire. I’ll be praying for you.